Hello Great Void!
I have begun the process of flinging words into you. This is a thing I do from time to time. It's kind of like therapy except I don't feel guilty for not changing anything after it. I'm here because, as you know, at some point in a person's life, they must reckon with the idea of mortality. No, I'm no concerned about death. I'm mostly concerned about time. Time has this habit of moving forward in ways that my personal goals do not. And when this happens, the stress of not accomplishing the things you feel you're fully well and capable of doing begins to create a palpable sense that if you don't do something RIGHT NOW, you are a huge failure and you're probably terrible at all the other things you thought you were good at, too. But, as we all know, accomplishments are a culmination of the concerted effort of doing little things every day. So, the best thing to do, probably, is just to do little things every day until those little things add up into a slightly bigger thing and then you can finally revel in the knowledge that, by doing something slightly bigger, you're probably making someone else feel like they've failed in the process. Circle of life and all that.
I don't know exactly why I'm telling this all to you, Void. You're just a void. I don't say that in a disparaging way.You exist to ... not exist, mostly. I guess it just feels nice to speak a truth that exist in my mind outside of my mind. And by writing it down, it's kind of like a 'little thing' that could maybe add up into a kinda-bigger thing. Maybe.
Look, I'm just glad that you're here, Void. Sometimes it gets lonely being lonely around all these people. At least feeling lonely around you is perfectly normal. You expect absolutely nothing of me, which is kind of freeing in some way. None of that cognitive rubbish about whether you like me or my writing. Just pure, unadulterated apathy.
So, thanks, I guess. I'm just glad that you're here. I know I've said that already, but I just want you to know. Okay, well the tea is ready and there's a re-run of Charles in Charge playing in the tele, so we'll chat later.
Sincerely,
Cam
